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Hey.

Uh.

Check in when you get a chance. I couldn't find you or your body in the library and you weren't in the office.

I got Daniel out. He was asking after you. I'd like to be able to tell him you'll be fine.

And apologize. Apparently this comm thing's good in emergencies after all.

Thank you. For Daniel, especially. And please apologize to Sypha and thank her as well.

He wanted me out of the library for his plan. He knew it didn’t matter if I was there or not.

I’m just glad you had it.

I’m not apologizing to her for her getting a fun opportunity to let the ship collectively punch Elias in the face. And have him witness his own cleanup. And…sorry also, for saying you were worse. I knew that was wrong then and better now.

Edited 2022-05-03 09:41 (UTC)

I sort of assumed you were talking out of your ass there but... accepted.

I let her library get burned down. That's the apology.

it wasn’t only her library, you didn’t make it happen, and this is why she’s a Speaker.

He was attacking me, primarily. So it’s at least partially my fault.

No it fucking isn’t.

[ There's a long pause. Longer than that short answer really accounts for.]

Most of the ways he's hurt me have involved setting up others to come to harm to get to me. Half of the marks and scars on me are there because I was trying to throw myself into danger over someone else. And I keep... falling for it? Giving him what he wants? And I hardly know what else to do about it because the alternative is unthinkable.

You're right. It... I'd tell anyone else it isn't their blame to take. But I suppose I want it to be so that I can figure out some way to stop it happening again.

Well, the real way to stop it happening is to take an axe to Elias' face every time you see him. But that's more vengeful than even I'm prepared for.

He's really due a lead pipe to the head, but I take your meaning.

Though I don't think violence is going to stop his threat. This was about me, though. And figuring out why that is...

I know why it was. What he gained from it back in our world. But here?

I have some ideas.

So there's your answer. Nothing's going to stop him, so it's not your fault if he still loses his mind and wants to burn the world. Yeah. Do you want me handling him?

No, I do think something will stop him. But I'm only just seeing the form of it.

Do you mean watching him to keep him out of trouble?

I mean figuring out a few creative ways to get him to stop his shit. But sure, also that.

What were you thinking?

No, I can keep an eye on him. Quite literally, as long as he's in a public place.

A handful of things. Depending on what you think of as torture.

I would have said something like this, to start. Destroying knowledge, even knowledge that isn't ours, pains us. Martin once started burning statements in front of him and he was livid.

What about denying knowledge?

I don't quite understand what you mean. Do you mean... ignoring something?

I mean like going up to him and rubbing it in his face that he'll never know all the things I could have told him. My family's library had thousands and thousands of books. Not just the ones we were working on. And I won't tell him about the time I fought Death, or closed a Hell portal, or killed Dracula.

Oh, he'll hate that.

He'll pretend different but he will.

Good to know.

...will you tell me someday?

Maybe. Sure.

Feel free to tell him that part as well.

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